7 – Change (2)

 

I lay down on the gymnasium as if collapsing.

 

The repeated training in recent weeks might have gotten me used to it, but the knights who realized that I was growing every day did not let go of their hands when dealing with me.

 

Because of that, today, too, I am in a state of rolling to death, And I was usually healed with the help of the priest of the Vitala Church, who resides in the family, but that still did not remove the feeling of fatigue weighing down my body.

 

The knights who were watching my training were all exhausted and sat down in the gymnasium. They looked at me with tired faces.

 

'Well, if I were in their position, I would have done the same.'

 

I tried to block their attack somehow and ran like a dog.

 

I’d become quite strong, but my body was still weak compared to the knights, so no matter how good my skills were, it wasn’t easy to give them one effective hit, but I didn't want to lose, so I persistently stuck to them and harassed them.

 

Perhaps from their point of view, I looked disgusting, but a win is a win.

 

“Thank you for your efforts.”

 

I said politely and left the gymnasium.

 

The knights would not be happy with me anyway, so it was better to quickly disappear from their eyes.

 

They must have been resentful of my depravity. It would be rather counterproductive to stick to this and that, to just get a good impression. And I don’t think people who hate me will like it if I talk to them.

 

The moment I was about to enter my room, I saw someone approaching me from a distance.

 

With black hair and purple eyes, it was Huian Ortaire, my brother who looked just like me. However, his inclination was the exact opposite, as he was a kind and upright older brother.

 

“Brother?”

 

“What are you up to?”

 

As soon as he looked at me, he immediately asked.

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“Pretending to be uncharacteristically sincere, what the hell are you plotting? I don’t think you’re going to live a different life now.”

 

I could feel the bitter disbelief in my brother’s words but It was not unexpected.

 

Because even after all the troubles I caused, the person who tried the hardest to somehow lead me to the right path, was neither my father nor my mother but was, my older brother.

 

At the age of 20, I grew up to some extent and began to understand many things. But now I understood why he reacted like that, he was just being the older brother who had been trying to get me to listen to him at least by talking, beating, and with all the things he can do.

 

“Your guess is incorrect brother. I'm trying to change and those are just the results.”

 

I said it even though I knew my brother wouldn’t believe it. I can’t make up words that will help him to believe me because they don’t exist.

 

“It’s hard to believe because of your past actions.”

 

“Well, even if you don’t believe me, I understand. I have no intention of telling you to look at me differently now.”

 

The change in my personality was largely due to awareness of my previous life, but I had no intention of treating my previous actions as if they didn't exist.

 

I was going to endure all the suspicious glances from people who were been harmed by me, and If I just work hard silently, their gazes will naturally change.

 

“And what happened all of a sudden? Just ignore me like before.”

 

“I wanted to do that too, but people were so anxious around me that I asked. Do you even know there are not just one or two people in the count family who are afraid of you?.”

 

“What kind of thinking is that?”

 

“Isn’t that the reason why you practice so hard, that you have a bigger plan later… That means more harm in the future, and most people are thinking like this, and of course, the same goes for me.”

 

“Aha...”

 

Well, if the guy who was just living like an idiot and arrogant fool suddenly came to his senses, everyone would be suspicious, and since the old me was that kind of person, is it really natural? Or there is something wrong with them?

 

“I know you don’t want to believe me, but what everyone thinks isn’t the case, I guarantee that there will be no accidents or problems in the future.”

 

“I wish the same too, Physis. There’s nothing I want from you. I don’t even want you to live hard, become a knight, or anything like that. But just please..., don’t make any trouble for the family anymore.”

 

His voice sounded very tired. He was the one who had been troubled by me the most, so I could understand his reaction. How painful it must have been for him, for his complexion to be dark like this?

 

“I will remember that.”

 

To such a big brother, I just replied what I could.

 

* * *

[ Huian Ortaire's POV ]

It was strange no matter how I looked at it. My younger brother recently changed. The guy who was always full of anger, and always tried to make others angry, and even enjoyed it, became calmer.

Also, uncharacteristically, he went to the servants he had wronged, apologized directly, and even paid compensation with his own money.

It was not all, in the past when I told him to work hard, he didn’t even listen to me, but now he was training himself more diligently than anyone else at the gymnasium.

The more he trained, the more he grew at an unusual rate, so I couldn’t even believe it.

According to the knights, it was a pity that he was wasting such talent.

Has he really come to his senses since the last time he fell off a horse?

However, the list of crimes he committed was too large, for him to be believable.

So I couldn’t help but think that there was something up.

Furthermore, since the Count’s family had been living in excessive anxiety every day since he changed, I needed to find out if he was really up to something.

As soon as I thought about it, I immediately asked him. 'What are you scheming?'

That person said he had nothing to plot or scam, but I couldn’t help and be surprised by his attitude rather than what he said.

The person who would have yelled at me in the past because he couldn’t control his anger looked at me resolutely and started talking straight.

Has he really changed? No, let’s not be fooled For now, it might be just a minor whim.

But what kind of wind is blowing? I couldn’t figure out the reason for even such a minor whim.

All I could guess was a vague idea that the princess of Rodenov had done something to him.

And he even said to me:

'I know you don’t want to believe me, but what everyone thinks isn’t the case. I guarantee that there will be no accidents or problems in the future.'

It was hard to believe. There had been a time I had seen him acting good too, so I knew there was no way he would keep his word, it was just that his acting skill was currently on top. So it would be a waste of time to say anything more here, so in the end I just told him don’t make any more problems for the family.

'Physis, please don't bring shame to the Ortaire family anymore.' I wished. 

I just wanted him to live as if he were dead when he would go to Rodionov's family, I thought so and looked at the documents piled up like a mountain in front of me.

'Damn! When will this be done?'

* * *

After talking nonsense with my older brother, I returned to my room with a tired body because I had work to do, and that was to accumulate mana in my body.

I didn’t know about it before realizing my previous life, but after that, I was in for quite a shock.

Not only the body of my previous life but also the body of my current life was showing a tremendous aptitude for mana.

Even if I had eyes that could see through the essence, accepting mana was a different issue, so I couldn’t help but train my body optimal for accepting mana.

This would allow me to grow much faster. Enough to be able to jump over quite a few knights in one year.

I calmly meditated, accumulating mana in my body, and gently raised my hand to wrap it around.

Although it was weak, I could feel the mana staying in my fist.

Managing mana was not difficult because I had experience; The problem was the absolute amount of mana, but even that would be increased quickly with this blessed body.

'The stronger the power, the better.'

My goal was to realize and feel the value of the good that I felt in my previous life.

The world I live in right now is the world where the weak can’t even properly argue.

Therefore, it was necessary to become strong in order to achieve my goal. Even if I can’t do it, I will have to reach the level of my previous life.

I continued to concentrate and build up mana in my body to become stronger as soon as possible.

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